Proud Dyke...

My sweetness is going to get her hair done...:) always makes me happy...I love when she "applies" lipstick...very hot!!! Her manicure and pedicure is complete and looks gorgeous...of course an eyebrow waxing to make it all perfect...
Now, for me...Butched out dyke that I am...loves a power femme that knows her stuff! Oh yeah! I have alot of gratitude for being a butch, a dyke, etc..one of the elite: Dykes On Bikes, and happy to have two son's who rock! I am so, so proud of these guys, its crazy!!! Amazing, full of creativity, smarts, and good looks! Yowzer!!!
I put in my two weeks notice at the stable. I am done with mucking. I am going to make money a different way... :)
I want to take the motorcycle mechanics class at WCC...learn everything, from welding, etc. yippeee! I also want to learn tattooing. oh yeah, and lost wax process of jewelry making.
I am happy.
I am content...
taxes have been dropped off. :)
call backs have been made...
Time to make/create more money...
That's my middle name...I am very good at that...:)
If you are reading this, take a moment to thank the great mystery for your life today...just for this moment!

Yep...seeking self, gratitude is always my attitude.

Hopefully, I can see through all the days and nights of trying to figure myself out. Of course, I am clean and sober today...having great conversations about trans/butch/dyke...etc. The difference in attitude, how one presents in the world, questions continue and hopefully the conversation never ends. No one, but no one should be criticized for living and being who they are. Feminism is real, but not all women born women fly this flag at full staff.
It is an interesting conversation.

Sometimes, when folks don't understand...

Interestingly enough, some folks do not understand that some people born women do not have a brain wired that way. Not sure why, or how to explain it. Even when I was pregnant...nothing like feeling/thinking male, and being pregnant. Teachers would tell me that my son's had a pronoun problem when they were age 3 and 4 because they always referred to me as "he" or "him"...or of course, mom. I was the only person they did that with...so, I told the teachers, ummmm, no, they do not have a pronoun problem.
I am grateful for coming into my power, being able to live the person that I truely am. I lost that momentarily...when I went back into the workforce...thinking that I had to "fit in" or "get thrown out." Anyway, I am not scared anymore. I am too old for that nonsense. It is time to live my life the way I see fit...whatever that maybe...as long as I am myself.
I appreciate my life. I appreciate my beautiful, femme partner...who teaches me about the absolute beauty and strength of feminity every single day! She is what you would call a "Power Femme"....capitalization required.
Yes, I like being called Sir.
Yes, my brain thinks that way.
I love my life, my sons, my partner...it is an awesome life. I am learning to fit in this body and be comfortable, no matter what. No matter the looks, the men that get pissed with me, etc. The stories that we all have are great. Like, the time I came out of the women's bathroom at a rest stop in my leathers, and this guy saw me and immediately assumed it was the men's bathroom and walked in...he figured it out fast, whipped around and gave me a truly disgusted look. I was happy, wheeling away on my Harley...
I am grateful for this life!
So, gratitude is the name of the game.
I liked this guy's shirt at a meeting last night, it said "Your Spirit is Your Shield"...that is cool...how true.

Today, I am happy, content and full of gratitude!

It is an amazing day and I am deciding to live in the moment, to know that my people love me unconditionally...and that I always have back up and love.
more later...gotta go muck the stalls...
peace out!

Starting a new year, a new attitude...lots of gratitude!

This past year was the most difficult year of my life. I almost let 2009 suck the life right out of me. But, I did not. I chose to work through...to be bigger than death itself...to own my own ground, to own my own lightning and thunder.
Today is a day of complete Freedom...I smell freedom all around me. I choose each action, each relationship, each thought that I have today. I will not allow anyone to attempt to make me small again.
I love this life. I love my boys, I love my partner. We have been through so much in such a short period of time.
I love the option today of thinking positively in all ways, with all people.
Gratitude list for MLK day...
My beautiful sons. They are my joy. They are intelligent, loving, funny and wonderful to be around and hang out with.
My partner, Jen. She is amazingly hot, gorgeous, intelligent, soft, cuddly, an amazing shopper, a super step-mom, creative, great scrabble player, has a great farm going on. She always has faith in me, faith in the positive, stays in today, confident, secure, inviting, great friend, compassionate, and loving.
Thanks god, for keeping me going this past year. It has been tough, please don't leave my side, its you and me...I have faith and fortitude today!
To all the transgendered dykes, allies and loved ones, never stop being who you are, no matter what! You count, you are handsome, strong and smart...
Peace to all today, on MLK day...Sir V